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What do I feel?I hurt so much
I feel so good.
My life is splitting into two parts;
I don't know which emotions I feel
Or don't feel.
Should I be bursting with joy?
Should I be crying amongst myself in a dark corner?
But I also feel nothing.
I'm numb to the things that could hurt me and the things that should bring me happiness.
I just don't feel anymore.
I used to get so excited but now I find it so hard to grasp the same delight
That I used to be drowning in
So long ago
So long ago...
I had a taste.
It was so delicious, so creamy, velvety and smooth in my soul.
I looked in the mirror
And saw someone completely new.
Someone radiating confidence, bliss; a light shining in my eyes...
My world had, in those very short few moments,
The doors slammed.
I had just seen the world beyond through the cracks, into the light,
And it was gone.
We can live without that goodness in our lives, but it's as soon as we discover it,
Does it suddenly feel like we can't live with
Absent PassionI thought I had everything,
I was on top of the world.
Who could ask for more?
The center of someone's world.
I thought I was living a dream,
After so long
How could it be?
It felt so euphoric to have someone hold me.
To be theirs,
And him mine.
But I was wrong,
It was a dream.
It felt so unreal, too good to be true,
I was just waiting for the bubble to burst.
And it did.
The dream is over,
It's reality now.
I never wanted to come back,
But I only have myself to blame
For this guilt, emptiness and shame.
I wasn't good enough,
I didn't give it my all.
It had to fall.
Here I lie
On the brink of tears,
Wishing I could go back to how it was.
I feel so numb.
I hate myself for being such a fool.
I should've held tight to the lengths I finally reached,
But instead I played around with it;
Made it all fall apart.
Your sweet love is gone,
The thrill you must've felt has melted away.
Now, I am a thorn in your side.
I'm so sorry
I wasn't what you wanted.
I don't want you to g
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